Life...How Precious

I have been gone from blogging for years. Why? Well life. I made a choice in the Spring of 2016 to embark on a journey. I decided to become a gestational surrogate. What a ride, what a change in my life. Good and Bad...but gratitude reins!

Let me explain.

I had thoughts of being a surrogate since my first born was not even a year yet, that was 16 years ago. I love, LOVE being pregnant. There is just something magical and amazing about pregnancy. It really is a miracle. I just never seriously pursued the idea...until January 2016. I stumbled across a post on FACEBOOK of all place such a random thing but it was life changing. I applied, and went through the process to see if I could become a gestational surrogate.  I passed every test including a psychological evaluation.

Things went quickly. I was matched with my intended mother. We signed our agreement. I began the process of adjusting my birth control to have my monthly cycle in accordance with the path to start IVF medications.

I did the IVF, got pregnant in November 2016, ultrasound confirmation was in December. Hang on the ride got crazy!!

I was diagnosed with cholestasis of pregnancy. Ok, so I followed doctor orders, did all the extra monitoring, delivered a healthy perfect baby girl for her parents in July. YAY, symptoms should go away right?!?!

NO! WTflip?? ok so now what. Let's get through the postpartum emergencies. Now let's figure out what is wrong. Blood work, Cat Scan, Blood work, liver biopsy, and one more lab....

I go to the doctor today, November 1, 2017 to get the life changing diagnoses.

I have people praying for me. People I have never met. I have a GOD that knows what is happening. I do not ask WHY am I sick, because I know why. We live in a fallen world. A world of sin. BUT, I know there is a future for me. I know I am going to heaven. I just haven't figured out HOW I will show the glory of GOD through my journey of illness. WHO will my story impact? WHAT does my future look like? WHAT does having trust and faith fully in GOD look like? I will do my best to fulfill this question. Refer to 2 Corinthians 12:7-10